SLAVE OF MY OWN DEPRESSION

Today is just another day of survival. As the next month draws near, I feel like I'm also getting nearer to my grave. Just a couple of hours ago, I was once again stucked into my deepest thoughts & agony. I said to myself: "konti nlng.. mababaliw nako!!" My eyes were already tired from crying. I can't pour my emotions out & the pain is really killing me. This is infact the worst kind of feeling anyone could ever possibly have.

I feel as if I'm inside a giant box surounded by mazes & facing nothing but blank walls.. Incarcerated by my own illusions, I can desperately feel my eagerness to get out of that box but I'm so lost.. I don't know which way to go.. I don't have any idea how to get over with those walls surrounding me. Will I climb up that wall? Will I destroy it? Or will I look for another way to find my way out? I need some shortcuts, I need answers, and most importantly I need solutions!!!

I'm trapped inside, vulnerable & perplexed! I'm in dire need of spiritual help. My head is full of questions that even I couldn't answer. All I know is that some things don't need answers no matter how hard you tried to search for it. Maybe because FATE has its own way of revealing these answers to us.

Even if fate is not always on my side & miseries overwhelm my whole being, I just hope & pray that someday I'll be able to free myself & live in peace again...

HURTING INSIDE

Our lives can often be difficult, harsh and unkind...dealing with highly emotional situations, unable to unwind.When we are hurting inside our pain is much more intense, there are no medications to get some relief, overly active minds, unable to relax, another night without sleep.Desperately, searching for a solution, all we can draw are blank...becoming frustrated, falling in too deep. We shouldn't be too hard on ourselves because many of us have been there & nearly crossed the invisible line.There is always hope, even when our lives are crumbling in a state of decay. Pry open the door of hope and let some sunlight in...the emotional pain lessens at the start of a new day.


HURTING INSIDE

There are moments that I feel I just can't go on
Wishing that you were here
Oh how I wish you're holding me close to you
Whispering those words I LOVE YOU

But baby you're not there like you were before
No words of love to hear
Can't smile anymore
Is it finally over? I can't wait any longer
Do you ever think of me?
Coz baby cant you see

That I'm hurting inside
All these tears I can't hide
Life is never easy without you baby
I want you to know that I'm hurting inside
The pain is deep inside I can't mend it
Wishing you would come to ease the pain in my heart
Coz loving you just hurts deep inside

Empty moments, they just fill every part of me
Since you've been away from me
Give me a chance to say how much I care
Hold me close to you & let me through

But baby you're not there like you were before
No words of love to hear
Can't smile anymore
Is it finally over? I can't wait any longer
Do you ever think of me?
Coz baby cant you see

That I'm hurting inside
All these tears I can't hide
Life is never easy without you baby
I want you to know that I'm hurting inside
The pain is deep inside I can't mend it
Wishing you would come to ease the pain in my heart
Coz loving you just hurts deep inside

THIS IS MY LIFE... THEN & NOW!

Para sa mga home wrecker na Dubai OFWs!!!

I hate irresponsible & home-wrecker human beings!!!!
Yung mga lalake na matapos makabuntis ng long-time girlfriend nila eh bigla nlng iiwanan just becoz he met some f**kin' asshole girl sa ibang bansa. At yung mga babae nman jan na wlang kasing kapal ang mga mukha na makipag-agawan pa sa asawa ng may asawa.. eh aba may karma ding dadapo sa inyo!!! So think before u act... You'll never know what will hit you!